Lord, send me

Today was a tough day. I'll admit it. I'm a crier. I cry a lot and sometimes at the smallest things, but today it all kind of fell into place. Everything is crashing together and things are changing fast. I don't usually deal with change, but I welcome this with open arms now. 

Before I came to EMU I was of little faith and completely unsure of everything except the fact that I wanted to major in social work. During my time here I came to find God (or he brought me back to him) and since then I haven't looked back. I felt callings to add majors and minors in certain areas. I was never sure why, but I had this feeling for the longest time that I was supposed to be at EMU. I mean I had an amazing group of people surrounding me. What else could I ask for? Well recently things have changed. Relationships have changed, people have changed, friendships are changing. I don't know how to handle all of this. So I once again leave it up to God and once again I am impatient for his answer and his plans to come into play. I went to church this morning and felt God speak to me. I felt as if he was talking to me through the sermon about judgment and then with the song "I will go, send me" by Starlight I felt him telling me to get ready. Well my version of getting ready is planning the next steps of my life. I am in the process of considering joining the peace corps now instead of waiting until after graduation. Part of me feels like I am running away from everything, but the other part of me is telling me to run. I just know that I am going to do what God wants me to. So with this I say:

"To the desperate eyes and reaching hands. To the suffering and the lean. To the ones the world has cast aside. Where you want me I will be. I will go, Lord send me. To the world, To the lost. To the poor and hungry. Take everything I am. I'm clay within your hands. I will go, send me."