Who Will Love Me for Me?

He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He's the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, "Dear God won't you please...
Could you send someone here who will love me?"

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
'Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day
She's the woman whose husband has run away
She'll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner
Then he would've stayed
And she says...

Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
'Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means

He's waiting to die as he sits all alone
He's a man in a cell who regrets what he's done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
"Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home"

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said
"I know you've murdered and I know you've lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you'll listen, I'll tell you that I..."

I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew

The words of this song stuck out to me today as I worked out by myself in the fitness room. I was doing  crunches and was going onto some yoga when this came on the radio over the system. I sat in silence and listened to the words of this song. Why is it we long so much for love? What is love and how do we know it when we feel it? We have a love for our family, love in a relationship and finally a love with God. We always need that feeling of support and longing for someone to care. It's a consistent feeling. This song means a lot to me. I know there are people who love me, but what does that mean? 

I do long for someone to hold me and hug me. Especially when the day has been hard. Everyone longs for this. But how do we get that? I'm seeing people fall in love all around me. Engagements are happening left and right. If you are engaged then there must be love there somewhere, but how do you establish that you love someone and you are ready to commit to them forever. I do long for more than anything to know that feeling of being loved by someone who is not just a friend or a family member, but what if God has other plans for me? Am I ever going to know what that feeling is? I'm feeling pulled in the direction of possibly devoting my life to God. I want to have a relationship with him because I know he is always there and so loving. I'm not talking about becoming a nun or anything like that. I'm talking about focusing more on God and not worrying about what he has in store for me. I expect that God will slap me upside the head when I am supposed to fall in love or feel what love is, but for now I am planning on devoting my life to God and doing his work. This means focusing on mission work and other acts that we are called to do as Christians. I believe fully in the power of God and know he will do nothing that will harm me. He has recently shut a door in my face telling me not to go for something. I know he did this to protect me and for that I trust him with my whole heart. Now if only I could make myself believe in the idea that eventually things will work out.....

 MY ONLY OCCUPATION IS LOVE

"I do not desire either suffering or death, although both are appealing to me;
it is love alone which really attracts me...
I can ask for nothing with any enthusiasm
except the perfect accomplishment of the Divine Will in my soul,
 unhindered by any intrusion of created things.
 I can say, with the words of our father, St. John of the Cross,
 in his Spiritual Canticle,
'I drank in the inner cellar of my Beloved, and when I went forth into the meadow
I forgot everything and lost the flock which I used to drive.
My soul has employed all its resources in His service;
now I guard no flock, nor do I have any other duties.
Now my only occupation is love.'
 Or again: 'I know love is so powerful that it can turn
whatever is good or bad in me into profit,
and it can transform my soul into Himself."
~ St. Thérèse