Who Am I?

Life can seem pretty bad at times. Okay let me rephrase that. In my opinion it can suck at times. I've had my days where I skip classes and don't get out of bad because I am done with everything. But then it occurs to me that I am wasting the precious time God gave me. Also, why am I spending my time crying and being depressed about stuff that God has already planned for me? There isn't anything I can change. It's all in his hands. Most recently it seems like things have been falling apart left and right. It hasn't been the greatest week, but there is one thing that happened this week that made me realize my blessings. I was at work and made a phone call to talk to someone. I ended up talking to this person's mom for 25 minutes. I learned so much about her family and she shared how proud she is of her children. Her son has lukemia and they are doing everything they can to make sure her daughter can even go to college. They won't be able to help pay for it, but she is going to find a way to get her there. Now here I sat almost crying when talking to this women. I am so incredibly blessed to be here in school. I have the opportunity to take all these classes, be surrounded by some wonderful people and I am going to have an amazing career when I am done. Yes, there are those days where I refuse to get out of bed because my life seems so hard and I don't want to face the world (or people at school). But my life is nothing compared to others. I am here. I am breathing. I am alive. I am not sure of why exactly I am here. I question it everyday, but I am here for some reason. And yes it sucks on some days, but it's okay. I have an amazing support system. There are people here who would do anything in the world for me. And honestly I would do anything for them. I came to EMU with little faith left and currently I sit here listening to God speak to me through song. He came into my life again and brought me back. I am nothing without him and although I wonder why he makes some days painful and why he put me here at EMU I still hold fast to his word. Nothing can tear me from him. I am no longer allowing other people to hurt me. For too long I have out up with it. If I hold fast to him whom shall I fear. Only the lord knows what will happen to me tomorrow and how things will pan out with everything that is currently going on, but I trust in him.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11

Prayer:
Lord grant me the peace and serenity to be able to carry on through tomorrow. Keep one hand over my mouth so I use no words that would pain you and your other hand on my shoulder to guide me in the direction you choose. I want nothing more than to please you. And I know it doesn't please you when I am unhappy with how things are going in my life. Grant me happiness with who I am and the choices you make for me. You are my desire. No one else will do.
In your name I pray,
Amen.